Happy Endings!

It has definitely been a few weeks since my first post.. I will try in 2012 to be a better blogger!

Speaking of 2012... I have so much to be thankful for in 2011 that 2012 is going to have a hard time beating this year! Over this past year, year #30 for me, I have been hurt, found new and old friends, laughed, loved, been loved and learned new lessons. So I bid farewell to 2011 with a smile on my face and a great outlook for the next year. A new year to continue on this amazing journey I have been blessed with! So far on my agenda is to graduate with my BA in May, May 11th to be exact!! It's been a long time coming, so yes, I am counting the days to be an official graduate! The second on my list of things to complete is an Entrepreneur program I was accepted into this year through SBA (The Small Business Association), Syracuse University and V-WISE (which is an organization for women Veterans). I get to travel to San Diego in August of 2012 to attend a 3-day training seminar/convention, which I am completely stoked about! So those are a few of the adventures I get to look forward to in this coming year and sharing with you.

As I end 2011 and begin to look forward to the new year and the new opportunity to start fresh, I find myself closer and closer to realizing what my true calling is in this life. I seem to have so much of my life figured out, an amazing marriage and 2 beautiful kids! Over the last couple of years, I have felt a calling, a true love for fitness and all that it involves. But what keeps me in the awful world of accounting, is, well.. it's what I am good at, it's what I know, it's easy and lets face it, it's comfortable! What's scarier than starting over? I have experienced this several times in my life. Growing up, we moved ALOT, so starting over was something all too common to me. When I joined the Army, I started over many many times and then getting out of active duty and moving to a new city on my own, and not to mention deciding to go back to college after having kids. Change is scary! I've gotten so comfortable with just being, just settling in with the career, not the one I chose, but the one that chose me, and if we are being honest, I really really don't like, at the end of the day it doesn't satisfy me and I am left wanting more from it. (Reminds me of a quote ""In order to succeed you must fail, so that you know what not to do the next time." ~Anthony J. D'Angelo)
So, in 2012, I hope to find the courage within me, the courage I know I have and just do what my heart wants to do....

Watch out 2012, I am coming for you! :)

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.
Live the life you have imagined.
~Henry David Thoreau

I choose HAPPY!

Well, I have been contemplating updating and maintaining my pre-exisiting blog for a while now. I think today is the day. I have so much to tell and so few to tell it to, but feel it still needs to be said.

Today was a good day! I woke up and worked out with my husband, the best workout partner a girl could have. Most days we don't work out "together" but we always work out together, if that makes any sense? Well, my husband, Gus is my biggest fan and the greatest guy a girl could have! We really do enjoy each others company over any others. I love to work out with him, he has such a positive attitude all the time and really pushes me to be better, inside and out. So working out with, or around him, makes me want to be better and to try harder. Every morning, well almost, we get up and head to our home gym, aka garage, and we work out. He does his thing and I do mine.. but we are "together" and it makes me feel happy!
So today, I feel blessed and oh so grateful (or as I tell Gus, "I'm Lucky") to be living such a full life filled with love. I have a partner who loves me and adores me and I in return, love and adore him just the same; I really don't know how much better it can get than that!?

So on the subject of being positive, I am becoming to dislike Facebook, for so many reasons but mostly because so many people post such negative things on there. Gus tells me I should just delete those people and as bad as I want to, to be honest, the ones that are sooo negative are people that I am related to and I hate to say anything in fear that I will make someone upset and I can't just delete my family. I am so torn on this. I enjoy Facebook for some things, I love sharing my photos and my life with close friends and family, but when is enough really enough? I consider myself to be a pretty positive person, I mean I have no reason not to be, I am living a good life. But I also know the life that I am living was created by my positive attitude and a lot of hard work, so I appreciate it even with the little ups and downs.
So I guess that is where today has brought me, I wrote an opinion, not in a negative way in the least and I was made out to be a bad person and I am, and I quote "not cool".. since when is sharing how you feel a bad thing? Oh well, I just try to shrug it off and realize, no matter how hard we try, we can't make everyone else happy and not everyone else really wants to be happy.
So I will end with the day in a positive note:

"The trick is in what one emphasizes.
We make ourselves miserable,
or we make ourselves happy.
The amount of work is the same."
-Carlos Castanada

I choose HAPPY!

~xoxo~